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~*~Yara's Journal - Feature3 - Gifts~*~

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 23, 2009, 9:27 AM
:bulletred::blackrose: A Gift For Me! :3

Look! Look what *dandy-red drew for me! :heart:



Isn't it beautiful?? :heart: :love:
Don't know her? SHAME ON YOU!!

And here, what :devedarkmoonstone: drew for me!



Go hug them to say "thankuh"! :aww:


:bulletred::blackrose: Feature3 :new:

Featuring the talented :iconhikarinosekai:!!

Because she has so much talent that deserves way much more credit~ And because she’s a Digimon fan just like me *o*
Gosh, I adore her art style and colouring! I always look forward to see more work of her :3
Too bad she’s busy… But anyway, it was very hard to choose 6 deviations out of here artwork, since she got some fanart of Kai Hiwatari… I almost wanted to put all those here XD But I could keep myself together ^^;

Here we go!




Plus, my request from time ago:



If you really really wants to be in it, you can comment, but I'm not promising anything.
I have a few artists in mind I surely want to feature, but I'm busy, so we'll see what I'll do.

Please visit him! She deserves is sooooo much! :love:


:bulletred::blackrose:Busy busy busy…:new:


God, it’s sooo busy these days… But I’ll never stop drawing! That’s my type of relaxing, even though I can take a break of drawing too sometimes ^^;

Ahum, I’ll set up a “to do”-list, so I and you’ll know what I’m up to. You’ll see the drawings and next to it what I still need to do about them


:bulletblack:Art Trade: Sweet vs Naughty for ~HHNKuningas ~ inking, colouring, re-inking and background
:bulletblack: Darksm and Towa for =darkmoonstone ~ colouring, re-inking , background
:bulletblack: Yamato Ishida for *dandy-red ~ inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: Tar-sama for *TarBananakis ~ finish sketch (add Hitoshi), inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: Digi-Picknick ~ inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: The World Ends With Your Love ~ inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: Yinga is watching… ~ finish sketch, inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: Chained Up, While You Accompagny Me for ~threatningroar ~ not started yet
:bulletblack: Doctor Who: 5th for ~YunaHellsing ~ inking, colouring...
:bulletblack: Chiarah-chan for =The-Princess-Of-Pain ~ colouring, re-inking
So you see, lots and lots of things to do. Besides that, I have much ideas spinning around in my head (need to write them down someday), and school work and exams coming on top of that.
… sorry if some things’ll take a while, I hope you understand~

Besides that, I’ll never be able to put up another journal with the background and main information about my characters up… I only did Yara Beqaura, since she’s my main and since it’s basically my autobiography…
ANYONE WITH QUESTIONS ABOUT MY CHARACTERS, ASK ME IN THIS JOURNAL. THAT’LL BE EASIER FOR ME. BEWARE THAT NOT ALL OF MY OC’S HAVE A DEVELOPED STORY BEHIND HIM/HER…

Na, seeyou :heart:


:bulletred: :blackrose: Apologize


I need to apologize for being so down and having my mood swings al the time... I know I'm a difficult person to live with, and I want to thank everyone who's stood by me all the time. Because it really means a lot to me.
It's even killing myself, but I'm so disgusted by the fact I'm such a attention-seeker, and I sincerely want to apologize for that fact.
So I'm sorry.

Giving out 5 drawings (fully coloured when I get the time) for the first to comment... (and please comment with something usefull, not something like only I want a drawing!)

:bulletpurple: 5th Doctor from Doctor Who for ~YunaHellsing
:bulletpurple: Oc Darksm (young version) for =darkmoonstone
:bulletpurple: Yamato Ishida from Digimon for *dandy-red
:bulletpurple: Oc Chiarah-chan for =The-Princess-Of-Pain
:bulletpurple: Vampire... for ~FullmetalKobe824


:bulletred: :blackrose: No More Digital Colouring


Uhm, yeah, I don't think I'll do digital colouring or linearts anymore. I had enough of trying and trying on Photoshop and Illustrator, while it always ends up as a piece of ... (fill in yourself :o)

I'm now "working" on a Kai drawing (yeah, Kai again ^^;), it'll probably be in black n white so it don't take long till I finish it. But after that, I don't think I'll make much digitally again. I don't have the hopes to improve anymore, so yeah...

Well, buhbye~


:bulletred: :blackrose: School!


Now I'm a college-student, I won't have that much time anymore to draw. Very busy and stuff, but I'll spam your inboxes with useless sketches :XD:

So! NO MORE REQUESTS, unless I say different. It could be I give you more free sketches in my journal.
But no more asking please. Unless you have a darn good excuse ;p

So yeaaaaaaaah :heart:


:bulletred::blackrose: Wishlist of my Life


What do I want the most? (in mixed order)

1) Be happy with myself (with my personality and my looks)
2) Find my Soulmate
3) Find my place in this world
4) Become a good person
5) Ride a dolphin :heart:
6) Get a child and become a good mother
(a boy would be Jonathan, a girl would be Morgan or Moira)
7) Help people without judgement
8) Stop hurting people
9) Go to the other side of the world (like Australia, Japan, Russia etc.)
10) Learn how to drive a car properly
11) Meet my cat who's passed away again
12) Keep my friends
13) Lose my depressive moments
14) Go underwater
15) Eating chocolate without gaining weight
16) Grow a couple of inches ^^;
17) Ride on horseback (I once did that, but I want to do it professionaly)
18) Meet a true wiccan who wants to teach me
19) Die peacefully
20) Life in my fantasy instead of real life


:bulletred::blackrose: LOTS OF TAGS


Got tagged by :iconshinyreddragon:!
~> [link]


:bulletblue::bulletblue:


Stole a tag from :iconthe-princess-of-pain:!
~> [link]

:bulletblue::bulletblue:

Got tagged by :icondandy-red:
~> [link]


:bulletred::blackrose: SUBSCRIPTION!!

:heart: !I HAVE A SUBSCRIPTION! :heart:

Thankyou so much, :iconyukikohisame: ! I knew it already long before you gave this to me, but you're such an amazing friend :glomp:
I can't stop thanking you!

YOU! YEAH YOU! CHECK OUT HER PAGE, NOW!!
She's one of the most talented and sweetest people here! ~ :love:


:bulletred::blackrose: :new: COLLABORATION


The Lineart by =YukikoHisame The Colouring by me




ENJOY IT EVERYONE! :heart:


:bulletred::blackrose: INFORMATION


:bulletblack: Please visit my other account ~:iconbeloa2:~ for photos made by me.
Arigatou!

:bulletblack: Also check this for information about my main OC Yara-chan!
[link]

My AMV about Kai Hiwatari~ [link]

If you want to know my MSN, Facebook or Twitter page, please ask me~


:bulletred::blackrose: EEVEE :heart:


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~:iconeeveeplz:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
:iconvaporeonplz: :iconjolteonplz: :iconflareonplz: :iconespeon-plz: :iconumbreonplz: :iconglaceonplz: :iconleafeonplz:

Eeevee & the Eeveelutions rule this journal!!


:bulletred::blackrose:KYAPI!


:heart: Clubs!

:iconpoke-pals: ~ :iconfruitsbasket:
:iconultimate-manga-club: ~ :icontraditional-media:
:iconanimeessentials: ~ :iconkaihiwatarilovers:

I hope I can add more clubs soon. Know a good one? Tell me please ^o^


:heart:Best friends!

~:heart:~:icontodo-chan:~:heart:~:iconyukikohisame:~:heart:~
:icondoujinshi-ka:~:iconfullmetalkobe824::~:iconkailahiwatari:
:icontarbananakis:~:icontinegrey:~:icon000razgriz:
:icondarkmoonstone:~:iconthe-princess-of-pain:~:icondandy-red:

Comment if you think you should belong in this list too :)


:heart:Wonderful work!

:iconkissmypixels:~:iconkaksoset89:~:iconhikarujen:
:iconsilentmoon-chan:~:iconhikarinosekai:~:icondoggy90:
:iconliitletoboe102:~:iconhieis-wolf-girl:~:icondarkangel-hikari:
:iconaminako:~:iconoliko:~:icontajii-chan:
:iconreplicated-marchen:~:iconoshiz:~:icontai-rayana:
:iconpapermelody:~:iconkurama-chan:

(+ all my best friends ;p)

And a lot more! I may update this list soon :)


~~~:salute:

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: My heart beating...
  • Reading: My journal
  • Watching: Killer Bunny!
  • Playing: Dead
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Blood
Skin by *jennyleigh (modified by *beloa)

~*~Yara's Journal - Feature2~*~

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 9, 2009, 9:57 AM
:bulletred::blackrose: Feature2 :new:

Featuring the amazing :iconfullmetalkobe824:!!
Because he’s a great friend, always has advice for me (even though I’m not always asking for it ^^;), he has an opinion on everything and he’d love to discuss with you whenever you feel like! Besides that, he’s very intelligent~ Just don’t be a Narutard or Twitard…

Here we go!




If you really really wants to be in it, you can comment, but I'm not promising anything.
I have a few artists in mind I surely want to feature, but I'm busy, so we'll see what I'll do.

Please visit him! He deserves is sooooo much! :love:


:bulletred::blackrose:Busy busy busy…:new:


God, it’s sooo busy these days… But I’ll never stop drawing! That’s my type of relaxing, even though I can take a break of drawing too sometimes ^^;

Ahum, I’ll set up a “to do”-list, so I and you’ll know what I’m up to. You’ll see the drawings and next to it what I still need to do about them


:bulletblack:Art Trade: Sweet vs Naughty for ~HHNKuningas ~ inking, colouring, re-inking and background
:bulletblack: Darksm and Towa for =darkmoonstone ~ colouring, re-inking , background
:bulletblack: Yamato Ishida for *dandy-red ~ inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: Tar-sama for ~TarBananakis ~ finish sketch (add Hitoshi), inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: Digi-Picknick ~ inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: The World Ends With Your Love ~ inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: Yinga is watching… ~ finish sketch, inking, colouring…
:bulletblack: Chained Up, While You Accompagny Me for ~threatningroar ~ not started yet
:bulletblack: Doctor Who: 5th for ~YunaHellsing ~ inking, colouring...
:bulletblack: Chiarah-chan for =The-Princess-Of-Pain ~ colouring, re-inking
So you see, lots and lots of things to do. Besides that, I have much ideas spinning around in my head (need to write them down someday), and school work and exams coming on top of that.
… sorry if some things’ll take a while, I hope you understand~

Besides that, I’ll never be able to put up another journal with the background and main information about my characters up… I only did Yara Beqaura, since she’s my main and since it’s basically my autobiography…
ANYONE WITH QUESTIONS ABOUT MY CHARACTERS, ASK ME IN THIS JOURNAL. THAT’LL BE EASIER FOR ME. BEWARE THAT NOT ALL OF MY OC’S HAVE A DEVELOPED STORY BEHIND HIM/HER…

Na, seeyou :heart:


:bulletred: :blackrose: Apologize


I need to apologize for being so down and having my mood swings al the time... I know I'm a difficult person to live with, and I want to thank everyone who's stood by me all the time. Because it really means a lot to me.
It's even killing myself, but I'm so disgusted by the fact I'm such a attention-seeker, and I sincerely want to apologize for that fact.
So I'm sorry.

Giving out 5 drawings (fully coloured when I get the time) for the first to comment... (and please comment with something usefull, not something like only I want a drawing!)

:bulletpurple: 5th Doctor from Doctor Who for ~YunaHellsing
:bulletpurple: Oc Darksm (young version) for =darkmoonstone
:bulletpurple: Yamato Ishida from Digimon for *dandy-red
:bulletpurple: Oc Chiarah-chan for =The-Princess-Of-Pain
:bulletpurple: Vampire... for ~FullmetalKobe824


:bulletred: :blackrose: No More Digital Colouring


Uhm, yeah, I don't think I'll do digital colouring or linearts anymore. I had enough of trying and trying on Photoshop and Illustrator, while it always ends up as a piece of ... (fill in yourself :o)

I'm now "working" on a Kai drawing (yeah, Kai again ^^;), it'll probably be in black n white so it don't take long till I finish it. But after that, I don't think I'll make much digitally again. I don't have the hopes to improve anymore, so yeah...

Well, buhbye~


:bulletred: :blackrose: School!


Now I'm a college-student, I won't have that much time anymore to draw. Very busy and stuff, but I'll spam your inboxes with useless sketches :XD:

So! NO MORE REQUESTS, unless I say different. It could be I give you more free sketches in my journal.
But no more asking please. Unless you have a darn good excuse ;p

So yeaaaaaaaah :heart:


:bulletred::blackrose: Wishlist of my Life


What do I want the most? (in mixed order)

1) Be happy with myself (with my personality and my looks)
2) Find my Soulmate
3) Find my place in this world
4) Become a good person
5) Ride a dolphin :heart:
6) Get a child and become a good mother
(a boy would be Jonathan, a girl would be Morgan or Moira)
7) Help people without judgement
8) Stop hurting people
9) Go to the other side of the world (like Australia, Japan, Russia etc.)
10) Learn how to drive a car properly
11) Meet my cat who's passed away again
12) Keep my friends
13) Lose my depressive moments
14) Go underwater
15) Eating chocolate without gaining weight
16) Grow a couple of inches ^^;
17) Ride on horseback (I once did that, but I want to do it professionaly)
18) Meet a true wiccan who wants to teach me
19) Die peacefully
20) Life in my fantasy instead of real life


:bulletred::blackrose: LOTS OF TAGS


Got tagged by :iconshinyreddragon:!
~> [link]


:bulletblue::bulletblue:


Stole a tag from :iconthe-princess-of-pain:!
~> [link]

:bulletblue::bulletblue:

Got tagged by :icondandy-red:
~> [link]


:bulletred::blackrose: SUBSCRIPTION!!

:heart: !I HAVE A SUBSCRIPTION! :heart:

Thankyou so much, :iconyukikohisame: ! I knew it already long before you gave this to me, but you're such an amazing friend :glomp:
I can't stop thanking you!

YOU! YEAH YOU! CHECK OUT HER PAGE, NOW!!
She's one of the most talented and sweetest people here! ~ :love:


:bulletred::blackrose: :new: COLLABORATION


The Lineart by =YukikoHisame The Colouring by me




ENJOY IT EVERYONE! :heart:


:bulletred::blackrose: INFORMATION


:bulletblack: Please visit my other account ~:iconbeloa2:~ for photos made by me.
Arigatou!

:bulletblack: Also check this for information about my main OC Yara-chan!
[link]

My AMV about Kai Hiwatari~ [link]

If you want to know my MSN, Facebook or Twitter page, please ask me~


:bulletred::blackrose: EEVEE :heart:


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~:iconeeveeplz:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
:iconvaporeonplz: :iconjolteonplz: :iconflareonplz: :iconespeon-plz: :iconumbreonplz: :iconglaceonplz: :iconleafeonplz:

Eeevee & the Eeveelutions rule this journal!!


:bulletred::blackrose:KYAPI!


:heart: Clubs!

:iconpoke-pals: ~ :iconfruitsbasket: ~ :iconultimate-manga-club:
:icontraditional-media:

I hope I can add more clubs soon. Know a good one? Tell me please ^o^


:heart:Best friends!

~:heart:~:icontodo-chan:~:heart:~:iconyukikohisame:~:heart:~
:icondoujinshi-ka:~:iconfullmetalkobe824::~:iconkailahiwatari:
:icontarbananakis:~:icontinegrey:~:icon000razgriz:
:icondarkmoonstone:~:iconthe-princess-of-pain:~:icondandy-red:

Comment if you think you should belong in this list too :)


:heart:Wonderful work!

:iconkissmypixels:~:iconkaksoset89:~:iconhikarujen:
:iconsilentmoon-chan:~:iconhikarinosekai:~:icondoggy90:
:iconliitletoboe102:~:iconhieis-wolf-girl:~:icondarkangel-hikari:
:iconaminako:~:iconoliko:~:icontajii-chan:
:iconreplicated-marchen:~:iconoshiz:~:icontai-rayana:
:iconpapermelody:~:iconkurama-chan:

(+ all my best friends ;p)

And a lot more! I may update this list soon :)


~~~:salute:

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: My heart beating...
  • Reading: My journal
  • Watching: Killer Bunny!
  • Playing: Dead
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Blood
Skin by *jennyleigh (modified by *beloa)

~*~Yara's Journal - Feature~*~

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 27, 2009, 12:23 AM
:bulletred::blackrose: Feature :new:

Featuring the wonderful :icondandy-red:!!
Because she’s an amazing artist, has so much patience, is way too sweet for this world and because she deserves much more credit :heart:

Here we go!

:rose: :rose:
:rose: :rose:

If you really really wants to be in it, you can comment, but I'm not promising anything.
I have a few artists in mind I surely want to feature, but I'm busy, so we'll see what I'll do.

Please visit her! She deserves is sooooo much! :love:


:bulletred: :blackrose: Apologize :new:

I need to apologize for being so down and having my mood swings al the time... I know I'm a difficult person to live with, and I want to thank everyone who's stood by me all the time. Because it really means a lot to me.
It's even killing myself, but I'm so disgusted by the fact I'm such a attention-seeker, and I sincerely want to apologize for that fact.
So I'm sorry.

Giving out 5 drawings (fully coloured when I get the time) for the first to comment... (and please comment with something usefull, not something like only I want a drawing!)

:bulletpurple: 5th Doctor from Doctor Who for ~YunaHellsing
:bulletpurple: Oc Darksm (young version) for =darkmoonstone
:bulletpurple: Yamato Ishida from Digimon for *dandy-red
:bulletpurple: Oc Chiarah-chan for =The-Princess-Of-Pain
:bulletpurple: Vampire... for ~FullmetalKobe824


:bulletred: :blackrose: No More Digital Colouring

Uhm, yeah, I don't think I'll do digital colouring or linearts anymore. I had enough of trying and trying on Photoshop and Illustrator, while it always ends up as a piece of ... (fill in yourself :o)

I'm now "working" on a Kai drawing (yeah, Kai again ^^;), it'll probably be in black n white so it don't take long till I finish it. But after that, I don't think I'll make much digitally again. I don't have the hopes to improve anymore, so yeah...

Well, see you~




:bulletred::blackrose:Lazy Person

I still need to write more journals containing the main info about all my characters, I have some sketches I need to finish, I have some inspiration but I never make something of it, I need to study…

Someone just shoot me! And release me from my laziness :noes:


:bulletred: :blackrose: School!


Now I'm a college-student, I won't have that much time anymore to draw. Very busy and stuff, but I'll spam your inboxes with useless sketches :XD:

So! NO MORE REQUESTS, unless I say different. It could be I give you more free sketches in my journal.
But no more asking please. Unless you have a darn good excuse ;p

So yeaaaaaaaah :heart: (that's my new stop line, like it? ^o^)



:bulletred::blackrose: Wishlist of my Life


What do I want the most? (in mixed order)

1) Be happy with myself (with my personality and my looks)
2) Find my Soulmate
3) Find my place in this world
4) Become a good person
5) Ride a dolphin :heart:
6) Get a child and become a good mother
(a boy would be Jonathan, a girl would be Morgan or Moira)
7) Help people without judgement
8) Stop hurting people
9) Go to the other side of the world (like Australia, Japan, Russia etc.)
10) Learn how to drive a car properly
11) Meet my cat who's passed away again
12) Keep my friends
13) Lose my depressive moments
14) Go underwater
15) Eating chocolate without gaining weight
16) Grow a couple of inches ^^;
17) Ride on horseback (I once did that, but I want to do it professionaly)
18) Meet a true wiccan who wants to teach me
19) Die peacefully
20) Life in my fantasy instead of real life



:bulletred::blackrose: FIRST AMV + FACEBOOK!


I forgot to mention! Anyone with Facebook is welcome to visit my Facebook page!
Just to inform you ^^;

Anyone who wants to add me to msn is also welcome, but ask me first please ^^



:bulletblue::bulletblue:



OMG! I just made my very first AMV ever!!! And I'm proud of it!

And what do you know? It's about Kai Hiwatari :love: (I'm sooo obsessed, shoot me T.T)

Well, here you go ~> [link]

Please tell me if you like it :glomp:


:bulletred::blackrose: LOTS OF TAGS


Got tagged by :iconshinyreddragon:!
~> [link]


:bulletblue::bulletblue:


Stole a tag from :iconthe-princess-of-pain:!
~> [link]


:bulletblue::bulletblue:


Got tagged by :icondandy-red:
~> [link]



:bulletred::blackrose: SUBSCRIPTION!!

:heart: !I HAVE A SUBSCRIPTION! :heart:

Thankyou so much, :iconyukikohisame: ! I knew it already long before you gave this to me, but you're such an amazing friend :glomp:
I can't stop thanking you!

YOU! YEAH YOU! CHECK OUT HER PAGE, NOW!!
She's one of the most talented and sweetest people here! ~ :love:


:bulletred::blackrose: :new: COLLABORATION


The Lineart by =YukikoHisame The Colouring by me




ENJOY IT EVERYONE! :heart:


:bulletred::blackrose: INFORMATION


:bulletblack: Please visit my other account ~:iconbeloa2:~ for photos made by me.
Arigatou!

:bulletblack: Also check this for information about my main OC Yara-chan!
[link]


:bulletred::blackrose: EEVEE :heart:


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~:iconeeveeplz:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
:iconvaporeonplz: :iconjolteonplz: :iconflareonplz: :iconespeon-plz: :iconumbreonplz: :iconglaceonplz: :iconleafeonplz:

Eeevee & the Eeveelutions rule this journal!!



:bulletred::blackrose:KYAPI!


:heart: Clubs!

:iconpoke-pals: ~ :iconfruitsbasket:

I hope I can add more clubs soon. Know a good one? Tell me please ^o^


:heart:Best friends!

~:heart:~:icontodo-chan:~:heart:~:iconyukikohisame:~:heart:~
:icondoujinshi-ka:~:iconfullmetalkobe824::~:iconkailahiwatari:
:icontarbananakis:~:icontinegrey:~:icon000razgriz:
:icondarkmoonstone:~:iconthe-princess-of-pain:~:icondandy-red:

Comment if you think you should belong in this list too :)


:heart:Wonderful work!

:iconkissmypixels:~:iconkaksoset89:~:iconhikarujen:
:iconsilentmoon-chan:~:iconhikarinosekai:~:icondoggy90:
:iconliitletoboe102:~:iconhieis-wolf-girl:~:icondarkangel-hikari:
:iconaminako:~:iconoliko:~:icontajii-chan:
:iconreplicated-marchen:~:iconoshiz:~:icontai-rayana:
:iconpapermelody:~:iconkurama-chan:

(+ all my best friends ;p)

And a lot more! I may update this list soon :)


~~~:salute:

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: My heart beating...
  • Reading: My journal
  • Watching: Killer Bunny!
  • Playing: Dead
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Blood
Skin by *jennyleigh (modified by *beloa)

~*~Yara's Journal - Apologize, Thankyou!~*~

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 20, 2009, 10:54 AM
:bulletred: :blackrose: Apologize :new:

I need to apologize for being so down and having my mood swings al the time... I know I'm a difficult person to live with, and I want to thank everyone who's stood by me all the time. Because it really means a lot to me.
It's even killing myself, but I'm so disgusted by the fact I'm such a attention-seeker, and I sincerely want to apologize for that fact.
So I'm sorry.

Giving out 5 drawings (fully coloured when I get the time) for the first to comment... (and please comment with something usefull, not something like only I want a drawing!)

:bulletpurple: 5th Doctor from Doctor Who for ~YunaHellsing
:bulletpurple: Oc Darksm (young version) for =darkmoonstone
:bulletpurple: Yamato Ishida from Digimon for ~dandy-red
:bulletpurple:
:bulletpurple:


:bulletred: :blackrose: No More Digital Colouring

Uhm, yeah, I don't think I'll do digital colouring or linearts anymore. I had enough of trying and trying on Photoshop and Illustrator, while it always ends up as a piece of ... (fill in yourself :o)

I'm now "working" on a Kai drawing (yeah, Kai again ^^;), it'll probably be in black n white so it don't take long till I finish it. But after that, I don't think I'll make much digitally again. I don't have the hopes to improve anymore, so yeah...

Well, see you~



:bulletred: :blackrose: Painful Sighs

Remember I told you since I’m going to college I was feeling truly happy again?
I guess that feeling has dimmed out. Again, that feeling of me feeling useless is there, I cry with no reason, I compare myself too much with all my friends (who are according to me definitely two thousand times better than myself), I feel lonely again, I feel like a stalker, I feel like an attention-seeker… I feel like a nobody.

I can’t help it, I can’t take this anymore! I need to cheer up again! Uaaaaaah…
You know what’s worse? I won’t talk about this with my friends because I don’t want to lose them… I don’t want them to see me as a funsucker, as someone who wants attention the whole time…
You know? The main reason I took Psychology is now to get to know myself… to help myself… to help other people like me in the future…
God, I even cry while writing this journal… WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?


Don’t comment on this journal to cheer me up or something, I just wrote this because I ‘m not a diary-person and I was going to burst if I wasn’t going to write it down…

So… I’ll keep you in touch if you want…
:hug: for those who stand by me the whole time!



==> I'll try to get through it. I'll try to move on, faced up. Try, that is. I'm not sure it'll work out the right way. We'll see.
Thanks for the support, I'll never forget it.


:bulletred::blackrose:Lazy Person

I still need to write more journals containing the main info about all my characters, I have some sketches I need to finish, I have some inspiration but I never make something of it, I need to study…

Someone just shoot me! And release me from my laziness :noes:


:bulletred: :blackrose: School!


Now I'm a college-student, I won't have that much time anymore to draw. Very busy and stuff, but I'll spam your inboxes with useless sketches :XD:

So! NO MORE REQUESTS, unless I say different. It could be I give you more free sketches in my journal.
But no more asking please. Unless you have a darn good excuse ;p

So yeaaaaaaaah :heart: (that's my new stop line, like it? ^o^)



:bulletred::blackrose: Wishlist of my Life


What do I want the most? (in mixed order)

1) Be happy with myself (with my personality and my looks)
2) Find my Soulmate
3) Find my place in this world
4) Become a good person
5) Ride a dolphin :heart:
6) Get a child and become a good mother
(a boy would be Jonathan, a girl would be Morgan or Moira)
7) Help people without judgement
8) Stop hurting people
9) Go to the other side of the world (like Australia, Japan, Russia etc.)
10) Learn how to drive a car properly
11) Meet my cat who's passed away again
12) Keep my friends
13) Lose my depressive moments
14) Go underwater
15) Eating chocolate without gaining weight
16) Grow a couple of inches ^^;
17) Ride on horseback (I once did that, but I want to do it professionaly)
18) Meet a true wiccan who wants to teach me
19) Die peacefully
20) Life in my fantasy instead of real life



:bulletred::blackrose: FIRST AMV + FACEBOOK!


I forgot to mention! Anyone with Facebook is welcome to visit my Facebook page!
Just to inform you ^^;

Anyone who wants to add me to msn is also welcome, but ask me first please ^^



:bulletblue::bulletblue:



OMG! I just made my very first AMV ever!!! And I'm proud of it!

And what do you know? It's about Kai Hiwatari :love: (I'm sooo obsessed, shoot me T.T)

Well, here you go ~> [link]

Please tell me if you like it :glomp:


:bulletred::blackrose: LOTS OF TAGS


Got tagged by :iconshinyreddragon:!
~> [link]


:bulletblue::bulletblue:


Stole a tag from :iconthe-princess-of-pain:!
~> [link]


:bulletblue::bulletblue:


Got tagged by :icondandy-red:
~> [link]



:bulletred::blackrose: SUBSCRIPTION!!

:heart: !I HAVE A SUBSCRIPTION! :heart:

Thankyou so much, :iconyukikohisame: ! I knew it already long before you gave this to me, but you're such an amazing friend :glomp:
I can't stop thanking you!

YOU! YEAH YOU! CHECK OUT HER PAGE, NOW!!
She's one of the most talented and sweetest people here! ~ :love:


:bulletred::blackrose: :new: COLLABORATION


The Lineart by =YukikoHisame The Colouring by me




ENJOY IT EVERYONE! :heart:


:bulletred::blackrose: INFORMATION


:bulletblack: Please visit my other account ~:iconbeloa2:~ for photos made by me.
Arigatou!

:bulletblack: Also check this for information about my main OC Yara-chan!
[link]


:bulletred::blackrose: EEVEE :heart:


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~:iconeeveeplz:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
:iconvaporeonplz: :iconjolteonplz: :iconflareonplz: :iconespeon-plz: :iconumbreonplz: :iconglaceonplz: :iconleafeonplz:

Eeevee & the Eeveelutions rule this journal!!



:bulletred::blackrose:KYAPI!


:heart: Clubs!

:iconpoke-pals: ~ :iconfruitsbasket:

I hope I can add more clubs soon. Know a good one? Tell me please ^o^


:heart:Best friends!

~:heart:~:icontodo-chan:~:heart:~:iconyukikohisame:~:heart:~
:icondoujinshi-ka:~:iconfullmetalkobe824::~:iconkailahiwatari:
:icontarbananakis:~:icontinegrey:~:icon000razgriz:
:icondarkmoonstone:~:iconthe-princess-of-pain:~:icondandy-red:

Comment if you think you should belong in this list too :)


:heart:Wonderful work!

:iconkissmypixels:~:iconkaksoset89:~:iconhikarujen:
:iconsilentmoon-chan:~:iconhikarinosekai:~:icondoggy90:
:iconliitletoboe102:~:iconhieis-wolf-girl:~:icondarkangel-hikari:
:iconaminako:~:iconoliko:~:icontajii-chan:
:iconreplicated-marchen:~:iconoshiz:~:icontai-rayana:

(+ all my best friends ;p)

And a lot more! I may update this list soon :)


~~~:salute:

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: My heart beating...
  • Reading: My journal
  • Watching: Killer Bunny!
  • Playing: Dead
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Blood
Skin by *jennyleigh (modified by *beloa)

Stolen Tag~

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 11, 2009, 1:46 AM
:bulletred: :blackrose: I stole a tag from ~FullmetalKobe824

Answer Truthfully!

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette -> I have asthma, I don’t want to make that worse!
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

SO FAR: 0

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love -> But I’ll never have a love
( ) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight -> Only some hair-pulling with my sister when we were little

SO FAR: 1

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person -> Sigh…
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die -> A cat being hit by a car…

SO FAR: 4

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart friends
(x) Been To Paris -> Disney Land!
( ) Been To Spain
( ) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 6

Level 5
( ) Eaten Sushi -> I’m not a fish fan…
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone Through Internet
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 6

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have -> Don’t want to talk about that…
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By -> With my sister!
(x ) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 10

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 12

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game -> Ahum…^^;
(x) Been Lonely -> Most of the times, yes
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 17

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 18

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood -> Everyone is misunderstood, no one can understand another person completely

SO FAR: 20

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
( ) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 21


Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight -> But I want to soon :heart:

SO FAR : 21

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look -> It’s better now, but I’m still uncertain
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced -> Ahahaha, NO!
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes -> What did you expect with those boring classes? Post-it notes are going around all the time!

SO FAR: 25

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like you where dying -> Don’t want to talk about…

SO FAR: 28

Level 16
(x) Cried to sleep
( ) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
( ) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 31

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain -> I want to :love:

SO FAR: 33

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus -> Who hasn’t?
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About With my best friend while we were in the car
(x) Blown Bubbles I have a bottle with Hello Kitty on it! :kitty:
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere

SO FAR: 37

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People (unforgettable memory)
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True Hmm, yeah
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey -> Whut?

SO FAR: 39

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina" -> But I have whispered it a lot ^^;
( ) Swam With Dolphins ->Kaaaah! I want to do that once in my life so badly!

SO FAR: 39

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kicked A Fish
( ) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top ->I’d kill myself if I did that… I’m clumsy…

SO FAR: 39

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs -> I have a need to do that :o
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 41

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone -> Because I got reminded on “The Ring”, and that movie seriously freaked me out!

SO FAR: 44

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts ->And I STILL do!
( ) Have / had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes (who need that many shoes!XD)
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail -> You’d think I had?

SO FAR: 45

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger -> But why?
(x) Broken A Bone -> Right arm
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 49

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 52

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test -> I’m so sorry!
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House

SO FAR: 54

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster (fun experience!)
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 56

Level 30
(x) Been Used -> By some “friends”
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs -> What? I’m clumsy!
( ) Licked A Cat -> Ehw, hairball?! :o
(x) Bitten Someone
( ) Licked Someone (as in terms of beating up someone)

SO FAR: 59

Level 31
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Total: 59

I've done 59 of the 120 Most Stupidist Things.

Almost the half of all the stupidist things. Oh my god :(

~~:salute:~~

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: My heart beating...
  • Reading: My journal
  • Watching: Killer Bunny!
  • Playing: Dead
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Blood
Skin by *jennyleigh (modified by *beloa)

Gone for a week (or longer)~ 

90%
26 deviants said :(
10%
3 deviants said :)

Shoutbox

~FullmetalKobe824:iconFullmetalKobe824:
Hoe doet u? :giggle:
Wed Dec 23, 2009, 4:40 AM
*TarBananakis:iconTarBananakis:
:kiss:
Wed Dec 2, 2009, 4:21 AM
*beloa:iconbeloa:
:heart: Love you all!
Sun Nov 29, 2009, 9:54 AM
~franpi43:iconfranpi43:
belles créations ! Félicitations
Sun Nov 29, 2009, 12:52 AM
~osundu:iconosundu:
I want you to check out my new work.
Sun Nov 15, 2009, 10:05 AM
=YukikoHisame:iconYukikoHisame:
:glomp:
Fri Nov 6, 2009, 3:08 PM
~000Razgriz:icon000Razgriz:
*poke*
Sun Nov 1, 2009, 7:35 PM
=The-Princess-Of-Pain:iconThe-Princess-Of-Pain:
lalalalalalala xD
Sun Oct 18, 2009, 8:06 AM
*beloa:iconbeloa:
Lalaaah! Com' on, everyone sing with me! :la:
Fri Sep 18, 2009, 2:56 AM
*beloa:iconbeloa:
OMG, the randomness! :noes:
Wed Sep 9, 2009, 5:46 AM

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