Apologize

I need to apologize for being so down and having my mood swings al the time... I know I'm a difficult person to live with, and I want to thank everyone who's stood by me all the time. Because it really means a lot to me.
It's even killing myself, but I'm so disgusted by the fact I'm such a attention-seeker, and I sincerely want to apologize for that fact.
So I'm sorry.

Giving out 5 drawings (fully coloured when I get the time) for the first to comment... (and please comment with something usefull, not something like only I want a drawing!)

5th Doctor from Doctor Who for ~YunaHellsing
Oc Darksm (young version) for =darkmoonstone
Yamato Ishida from Digimon for ~dandy-red




No More Digital Colouring

Uhm, yeah, I don't think I'll do digital colouring or linearts anymore. I had enough of trying and trying on Photoshop and Illustrator, while it always ends up as a piece of ... (fill in yourself )

I'm now "working" on a Kai drawing (yeah, Kai again ), it'll probably be in black n white so it don't take long till I finish it. But after that, I don't think I'll make much digitally again. I don't have the hopes to improve anymore, so yeah...

Well, see you~



Painful Sighs

Remember I told you since I’m going to college I was feeling truly happy again?
I guess that feeling has dimmed out. Again, that feeling of me feeling useless is there, I cry with no reason, I compare myself too much with all my friends (who are according to me definitely two thousand times better than myself), I feel lonely again, I feel like a stalker, I feel like an attention-seeker… I feel like a nobody.

I can’t help it, I can’t take this anymore! I need to cheer up again! Uaaaaaah…
You know what’s worse? I won’t talk about this with my friends because I don’t want to lose them… I don’t want them to see me as a funsucker, as someone who wants attention the whole time…
You know? The main reason I took Psychology is now to get to know myself… to help myself… to help other people like me in the future…
God, I even cry while writing this journal… WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?

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Don’t comment on this journal to cheer me up or something, I just wrote this because I ‘m not a diary-person and I was going to burst if I wasn’t going to write it down…

So… I’ll keep you in touch if you want…
for those who stand by me the whole time!


==> I'll try to get through it. I'll try to move on, faced up. Try, that is. I'm not sure it'll work out the right way. We'll see.
Thanks for the support, I'll never forget it.


Lazy Person

I still need to write more journals containing the main info about all my characters, I have some sketches I need to finish, I have some inspiration but I never make something of it, I need to study…

Someone just shoot me! And release me from my laziness


School!


Now I'm a college-student, I won't have that much time anymore to draw. Very busy and stuff, but I'll spam your inboxes with useless sketches

So! NO MORE REQUESTS, unless I say different. It could be I give you more free sketches in my journal.
But no more asking please. Unless you have a darn good excuse

So yeaaaaaaaah (that's my new stop line, like it? ^o^)



Wishlist of my Life


What do I want the most? (in mixed order)

1) Be happy with myself (with my personality and my looks)
2) Find my Soulmate
3) Find my place in this world
4) Become a good person
5) Ride a dolphin
6) Get a child and become a good mother
(a boy would be Jonathan, a girl would be Morgan or Moira)
7) Help people without judgement
8) Stop hurting people
9) Go to the other side of the world (like Australia, Japan, Russia etc.)
10) Learn how to drive a car properly
11) Meet my cat who's passed away again
12) Keep my friends
13) Lose my depressive moments
14) Go underwater
15) Eating chocolate without gaining weight
16) Grow a couple of inches
17) Ride on horseback (I once did that, but I want to do it professionaly)
18) Meet a true wiccan who wants to teach me
19) Die peacefully
20) Life in my fantasy instead of real life



FIRST AMV + FACEBOOK!


I forgot to mention! Anyone with Facebook is welcome to visit my Facebook page!
Just to inform you

Anyone who wants to add me to msn is also welcome, but ask me first please ^^







OMG! I just made my very first AMV ever!!! And I'm proud of it!

And what do you know? It's about Kai Hiwatari (I'm sooo obsessed, shoot me T.T)

Well, here you go ~> [link]

Please tell me if you like it


LOTS OF TAGS


Got tagged by !
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Stole a tag from !
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Got tagged by
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SUBSCRIPTION!!

!I HAVE A SUBSCRIPTION!

Thankyou so much, ! I knew it already long before you gave this to me, but you're such an amazing friend
I can't stop thanking you!

YOU! YEAH YOU! CHECK OUT HER PAGE, NOW!!
She's one of the most talented and sweetest people here! ~


COLLABORATION


The Lineart by =YukikoHisame The Colouring by me




ENJOY IT EVERYONE!


INFORMATION


Please visit my other account ~~ for photos made by me.
Arigatou!

Also check this for information about my main OC Yara-chan!
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EEVEE


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Eeevee & the Eeveelutions rule this journal!!



KYAPI!


Clubs!

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I hope I can add more clubs soon. Know a good one? Tell me please ^o^


Best friends!

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Comment if you think you should belong in this list too


Wonderful work!

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(+ all my best friends )

And a lot more! I may update this list soon


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